homesick blues.

I just came back from a two week trip from San Diego, CA. It was an amazing and fun time. I know I keep saying this but 2 and a half years has changed a lot of things. Like the fact that my mom has done much better than before and my dad has finally loosen up for me and my sisters. I'm so happy that they also finally got to meet my family. I'm lucky to be a father of a gorgeous daughter named Emily Jane. Everyone loves her and her beautiful mom :) I am so happy that the things we had major problems on had finally burned up and disappeared. My family has gotten so amazing and I miss them so much. My sisters have grown up to be beautiful ladies. They're no longer little girls. We're all no longer kids and it kind of makes me sad how I missed out on so much for the past two and a half years. When I hang out with them, it seemed like yesterday we were in our old house backyard playing on that yellow and red table and eating sphagetti. It's so different now but the only thing that has never changed is our relationship and bonding towards each other. I love them so much and I did my best not to tear up on the last hug before I departed back to Nashville. I promise I'll come back and share more with you guys.

Jane and Sabino had always been amazing when they're around. They had always been way more than best friends to me. They have the most amazing gift and it's the way that they share. They are willing to share and give when they can and sometimes they go out of their way to give or share and I'm worried and scared that one day someone will just take complete advantage of them. I will do everything I can to protect them. I love them so much and I want them to know how much I appreciate and how much I'm thankful for everything they've done for my family.

Mom and Dad, everything happens for a reason and the whole past before I left to Nashville has really rewarded all of us, don't you think? Like the bonds are so much stronger and the communication is much clearer. I'm so happy that everything now feels like it is back in place and I love you guys always.

Jilana Souvannaseng, I can't explain the beauty and the love and the wonderful things you give and bring to me. I can't explain why my heart beats so fast when it is time for me to come back home from work and the excitement I get when it's time to go home. I can't even explain why you are with me because I'm such a slob but I can explain that I'm willing to love you and have you have my heart forever. It's safe to say that no one has what we have.

Emily Jane, when you grow up, I honestly hope you find this blog because this is a journal of my life before you were in your mother's stomach, during the time you were in your mother's stomach, and during the time everyone laid eyes on your gorgeous eyes. I love you always, daughter.