It's over now.

Alrighty's. Since I haven't had a computer or internet in a while. I have finally been able to listen to more music and catch up and all I can say is I am so glad to be catching up because I'm finding some really pretty music out there. I really want to fly to Arizona and do a photo shoot with this particular. His name is Matthew Gilbert and this Poem:

I fell asleep each night to

aluminum dreams:

A malleable mess

of melancholy meaning.

I'd wake

up and start a new day to fuck up

everything.

This is the last

time

It was better your first

time

This is the last

time

Taking, taking away

And

faking, faking everything

It's

over now.

It's over now.

Taking,

taking away

and breaking

out;

I'm breaking out.

It's over

now.

It's over now.

I haven't

eaten in days.

I'm losing more

weight

So there's less of me to

hate.

No more long-sleeve shirts

to cover my arms.

No more nights

in the garage with the car

on.

I recommend him a lot. 

Talking, Talking CRAZY

I am at Panera Bread right now and the this is the first time I have ever blogged using a computer. So I have some goals for this week:

-Pay the bills

-Rewrite my notes to get ready for midterms next week

-Demonstrate depth of field

-Put money in the savings

-Make at least 1000 dollars at CarMax

-Find something special for Jilana :]

-Start doing film!

-Figure out rates for photography side business :]

-Save money again.

-Play some music!

Aside from it all, I wish I could go to work as often as I need to so I can make money but these days I have to go to school, spend time with my family and all that cheese. Hopefully, I reach my goal because that means I'll get to go shopping for my adorable daughter Emily Jane and for those of you who don't know, her name is EMILY JANE not just Emily. It kind of kills me when the doctor calls us and just says Emily. A friend of mine just IM'd me and said that my daughter is the cutest baby. I really appreciate that because she's fat. Hahaha. Well, it is currently 4:36 and my next class starts at 6:00. Worst part about this next class is it is my least favorite class, Success Strategies. Although I have to give the assignment some props because it gave me some useful information on time management.

Enjoy these pictures :]

26 cents was the price to pay

Yesterday was my day off. I did everything I could. I paid bills. I
went to Panera again so I can surf the net (I don't gots cable and
internet yet). Can you believe that for two years, Jilana and I didn't
have a computer and didn't even have cable television. We relied on
renting dvds to keep us entertained. Now, I've finally graduated finance
101, (I think) and saved up money to do a wee bit more stuff.

Anyways, again with my day off...I needed to do some software updates on
my macbook so me, Emily, and Jilana chilled at Panera until 8 hahahaha.
We were there for a long time. I didn't even finish my updates because
trying to download straight from wifi was almost like dial up. After
that we headed down to Emily's grandpa's place. I went in with a Wii
competition against Grandpa Phan hahaha. That guy is the best Grandpa
ever. I also messed a whole lot with the boys and Jilana. Jilana is an
abuser. But I love it. The one thing I love most is she is so different
than other girls. Other girls will tend to be shy and not wanna budge
or play around. But Jilana will be all out. She nearly beat the shit out
of me! I was feeling what Rihanna was having that night Chris Brown
decided to brown her ass. I love it, though. After that, the boys
wanted to sleep over so we went back to my place. We tricked them that
we didn't have Macbooks. They went all crazy when we finally showed it
to them. While they played with the Macbooks, I did my egg assignment.
I had to shoot an egg for my class.

I can't wait for my cable to come on Thursday. I've missed television
and internet cable for a long ass time.

Oh, and I have a new love and it was ever since she was born. Emily
Jane, the best daughter in the world...even though she is such a drama
queen.

Well, I need to eat my breakfast and go to work.

That's all folks!
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Oh say, say, say

I am finally on this thing. Everything has been busy, busy, busy. I am
beat. I'm ready for that vacation. I realized my schedule at work and
school left me very few days off. So with each complete day off, I've
been trying to make every good use of every minute.

I'm tired of nature photography. It is so boring to me. All my
pictures look the same. It is ridiculous. Shoot a bird..then shoot an
apple...how about the berries...blah blah BORING! So the other day was
a very nice sunny day and Jilana's little siblings were outside playing.
I whipped out my 35 mm film and took some good shots. I was excited
because I used black and white film and for some reason there is a lot
of thrill in wondering how your shots turned out and having to wait till
they are developed to see them. Unfortunately, I loaded the film wrong
and I didn't get any shots. What the fuckety fuck was I thinkin'. I was
mad pissed, man. All I had were these digital shots taken from Jilana
but I wanted to see the old school retro look coming straight from a
1989 camera with 1989 lens. Gahhhh. Now I hope my next day off is going
to be sunny so I can retake some shots. The kids are awesome models.
They get real into it and I love it. I'll share what Jilana took soon.
I updated the flickr so check that out.

Oh yeah, I'm getting my macbook today...!
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Can't you love me already

I am addicted to photos. Someone stop my mind, ahhh. Jilana and Emily is
sleeping and I am trying to call off at work. I haven't had a day off so
it is crazy. Time management is harder than it sounds. So we went to HR
block to file taxes and my gosh, they charged a lot in fees just for
them putting numbers in a program. I am definitely doing my own taxes
next year. Well, I got a new shooting assignment. Take a picture of a
subject in sunrise, afternoon, and sunset. We will be observing the
different lights. I suck at photography...I'll get better.

I just feel like I haven't been having enough time with my camera. I go
to school and then work. When I'm home I just want to enjoy time with
Emily because she ain't going to be small for a long time.

Happy Birthday, Dad!
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And the sun comes one more day

The last two days had been beautiful days. The sun crept out from the
clouds shadows and finally said hello. I had a good two days both from
work and school. So, I bought a dry erase calendar white board because
I need to organize my life, haha. With Emily, Jilana and I need to find
things to fit in my very tight schedule. I love my beautiful family.
Anyway, I decided to cut down on smoking. I realize that I don't need
to smoke to boost my self-confidence or help me relax since my family
does just that for me.

So I found out something about myself yesterday and that is sometimes I
can't help to argue I am right even though I am wrong. I am thankful
that Jilana is here to point that out to me. The world says, "Practice
makes perfect" and I will practice to be better than that. Be more
humble than prideful.

So, that is Mya and she's pretty. I'm so mean to Jilana's sisters but I
love them a whole lot, hahaha.
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