Gotta spend some time, love

Gotta spend some time with me.
I will possess your heart.
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I guess I couldn't live without things

This maybe a deep entry but I have to do this and just vent out of my
system.

God, I understand that my whole soul, my whole life, and my heart are in
your hands and that you have control in pulling the plug but before you
pull that plug, when are you going to make me shine. When are you going
to make me successful. I have done everything. I have explored other
domains and still all I can do is run to you because there is none like
you. And I understand the path to you is very narrow but couldn't you
just have stretched it a little bit out more so I don't have to worry
where I step? I guess what I am really saying is that I miss you, God. I
really need you everyday in my life and I feel like I haven't ever seen
your face. Am I wrong to talk like this? I just really had to say this
out. I just needed to let you know how I feel. In Jesus name. Amen.

That made my life what it is.

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I guess I couldn't live without things

This maybe a deep entry but I have to do this and just vent out of my
system.

God, I understand that my whole soul, my whole life, and my heart are in
your hands and that you have control in pulling the plug but before you
pull that plug, when are you going to make me shine. When are you going
to make me successful. I have done everything. I have explored other
domains and still all I can do is run to you because there is none like
you. And I understand the path to you is very narrow but couldn't you
just have stretched it a little bit out more so I don't have to worry
where I step? I guess what I am really saying is that I miss you, God. I
really need you everyday in my life and I feel like I haven't ever seen
your face. Am I wrong to talk like this? I just really had to say this
out. I just needed to let you know how I feel. In Jesus name. Amen.

That made my life what it is.
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They call it past

I had an awesome birthday. Jilana's dad invited me to his place where he
gave me lots of beer and the most awesome cake with the kids singing.
This friday I will be enjoying a night with the car max guys at
Chasers.

I am picking up my guitar and playing a few covers. I have Alicia Keys
all over my mind. She is an awesome and beautiful songwriter. I got a
friend who owns something in the music business who will help me
record..hopefully.

I love work, too. :)

Because I'm getting past.
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I told God I'd be back in a second

work has been successful for me. I am starting to learn so much about
myself as I am working with all different types of customers. I think
the one thing I learned most is that nothing can get you out of the
hands of God and I seemed to have learned that the hard way. So I took
the time to pick up the Book or go on google to get myself a verse to
feed my heart. As humans, the hardest challenge is trying to be as great
as God. I have to be honest that today it was so hard for me to split
money to a good friend of mine in Knoxville who I had helped sell a car
for his cousin here in Rivergate. My friend Jim always said, "you know
who the crooks are when money is tight." And to top it off todays verse
was that those who love money don't have money enough and that it is
meaningless." So I took the time and called all my customers that I've
been seeing and let them know that I will be of any assistance for
them.

It was hard. I admit it was so hard not to think greedy. And it is funny
how I can spend so much and greed.

But what made me feel better are the wonderful things coming in the
mail. I received a package from my sisters and two letters that made all
my sufferings go away. I received a wonderful gift from the biyos and
really, that just caked my birthday. Oh and Jilana's early present made
me feel warm and my moms text messages have made me strong.

I thank God for helping me and I ask that I become successful in
everything I do and at the same time try not to be greedy.

It is only the tenth and tomorrow is my 21st birthday. I could say I
have already celebrated enough through the support from God, Jilana, my
family, and my friends.

Thank you all.

Man, its so hard not to act reckless.
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Money is stupid. Expense logs and money clips piss me off.

Its fun to do those things but I just hate the seriousness about it. I
hate being serious especially when it comes to money because it kills
the whole mood. And I learned from Jilana that money shouldn't ever be
the baseline of anything because when money is gone then there goes the
whole world. And I don't regret a damn thing I spent or spend on if
money clip or expense log is telling me that if I do this and that I
will save for my future. What fun will I have without taking risks?
Without the extra degree to succeed further?

Money. I hate that everything about it. But you gotta play the game to
get by. Pretty sad.

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